life, what do you know about it. i know a little but not too much. but i do scared of it. love, i don't really into it, but i live with it. i love my kids, so i live abit longer. i want to and i hope to. secret, do you have any? because i do, alot. i kept it, well enough, so no one knows what going in and out. how about tension, do you know what it means. i do. i face it everyday. i live with it and its exhausting. but its beautiful, from your point of view, because you dont know how other people shoe fits. maybe they dont but its a secret. so the tension wasn't show. butterfly, its beautiful. rainbow, sunset, sunrise or rain. i still prefer snow, i saw once and its a blessing for me. again, i live where it only 2 season. it's either summer or rain. but its always festive. 

how are you guys, do you feel loved today or yesterday or perhaps forever? its been awhile. and do i missed it here. i do. and i'm better for sure. 

anyways, happy new year or i might write again. something better, something vibrant. also, a little snaps of my love ones. my kids. 

till then, love you <3

Mark.

I have always wanted a family on my own, spending weekends with my family cooking and talk about they're long working days. Celebrating each of our special days and love each other undividedly.

Hello, is been a very short year in 2020 and myself can't believe that not just i got a husband but baby on boarding. It's like a dream come true but not the dream i ask for but a prayer that always in my head, GRANT ME A BABY AND A GOODLOOKING HUSBAND.

I'm in the middle of second - third trimester and experience mummies was surprised that my boobs is producing milk like can you believe it? I'm a cow now, a milking shit of a cow. Perhaps i should sell a milk brand Mummy Cow that can be use for various ages neither gender, or is just crazy... OH, so every time there milk coming i would actually ask my husband to try and he always only wanting to try when there none, but when there is "perhaps another day". I'm confused and judging, perhaps one day instead when he says "can i have cereal". 

2021, is a questionable year to compare with 2020. People thought 2020 is gonna be the best of years in entire life that end up with miserable pandemics and many more happens, even i thought that i gonna get proposed by my husband but instead we got a baby which a blessings, like let's just skip this unnecessary bills,.... And instead he told me that he was gonna proposed to me on 2021. Regardless, for me 2020 is a year that i will never forgot. Despite of being away from my family, i create my own family, not SIMS but a life own family.

An undivided love husband, our little girl give us a surprise and a house. One year all conquered.

For 2021, a doa for a safe and healthy people around the world, a safe labour journey, things to start picking up again as i miss my family cross border and to keep fixing myself to a better person insyaallah amin.

Love, Ain ♡

It been awhile,

 So, since young i always scared to cook new recipe that i search online as i know it gonna be 70% taste sucks or 30% edible. but abah and adik always eat with a smile on the face say it's fine as even a michelin star chef cook sucks food. After being married for less than 5 months i dare myself to cook and recently i tried a soo called "ang moh breakfast". Scrambled egg with toast without sausage and it turns out to be edible with no taste and i swear i scared as hell to feed him the not so well done food. But he ate it, finished cleaned just like how he drink his soup without complain yet say "thank you for the breakfast :)". He never complain my flaw/mistakes hence he improve it and verbal it with good words. Each day he remind me how thankful he is to have me in his serba kekurangan life.

Life teaches me to be simple, humble and patience. As the more you wait the more time will improve your future to be better, patience so you could be stronger than ever and humble so no matter what came into you, you will still be happy with what you had at the end of the day.

and him, he teach me to be who i really am. It's fine if you have a burden, it is fine if you don't know how to look like others, it is fine to be simple, to be kind or to be humble. As long as you be who you are, life will lead you there. And he told me that how he found me.  And since then i can't imagine my life without him.

Covid-19 not as bad as what people thought compared to my thought. Despite of not able to see my siblings across town, i create my small family. Everything in order with husband in line and our little one on it way.  It's a miracle and i can't wait for it to be over so i could share this with my family in Malaysia.

how your day :)